Inner side of Missy Mai

Closed.

2010-01-25T22:12:00.002+08:00

Dear readers,

I have decided to move on and won't be writing or posting at this blog. Thank you for your support. Love you loads.

xoxo
Missy Mai

Pencari JalanMu yang tiada henti.

2010-01-25T00:56:00.004+08:00

Kadang-kala bila kita sering bernyanyi ia boleh menjadi satu doa. Lagu Pencari JalanMu memang sesuatu untuk diruku ini.

Afgan - Pencari JalanMu

Telah banyak yang ku lewati
Jalan hitam di dunia
tak terhitung salah menodai

Masihkah ada kesempatan
Bagiku mendekaktkan
Hati dan cinta kasihMu

Ku ingin bersihkan diriku
Dari segala dosa
Yang telah ku perbuat hingga kini

Ku ingin bersihkan jiwaku
Terangilah dengan segala
Petunjuk jalanMu

Bersihkan, terangi, hidupku

Tiada yang ada selainMu
Yang selalu menjagaku
Meski kadang tinggalkanMu

Aku hanyalah manusia
Yang mencari jalanMu
Yang pasti kembali padaMu.

Photos and Life.

2010-01-24T15:30:00.006+08:00

I don't wish my life to be only black and white.

I want some colours added into it.

Then light will eventually beautify my life.

(Photos are taken by yours truly with Canon S90)

Amend my mind.

2010-01-22T03:34:00.008+08:00

Sometimes in life, we have to let go the good things for the better things to be together. Today, I finally understood what the meanings behind that sentence.

We usually listen to our heart when it comes to make decision. Do you think that is the right decision? Well, it is up to you to decide.

Being a mathematician student, I realised I have been using my brain A LOT to analyse every situation that I am in.

I might be insane to think too much until I hardly have a good night sleep at night. I want everything to be perfect and I am afraid to face any failure.

You might think I have moved on with life. I look happy, smiling and cheerful but how about my inner side. It is not easy to face the world if your pasts kept haunting you. Hallucination every minute will happen when I am alone.

Wild thoughts will be lingering in my mind that I sometimes am defeated in controlling to stop.

Yes, I am insane. I just want to let go everything and start over again.

Reading peoples’ blogs about their significant makes me happy and alive once again.

I know that I hardly share with you readers about Kamal and I life. What we do, what he gave me, the places that we discovered and many more. Please do not think that I am not happy with him just because I did not write stories of him in my blog. In fact, I am thankful to be with him.

The pasts will reappear in my mind when I wanted to blog about Kamal and I. Do you know how irritating that could be? See, I am awake at this hour instead of sleeping!

The best part of stopping me from thinking too much is go for a jog or a run.

I did that yesterday afternoon and I feel exhilarated! I put everything aside and concentrating on my breathing.

Well, soon I will be 24 years old. I must stop myself from thinking unnecessary stuff and face the reality. I know I can do it. Whatever happens it all started from me. Hence, only I can solve the problems with the help and guidance of Al-Mighty.

Flu season is back!

2010-01-18T20:26:00.002+08:00

Flu and sore throat are attacking me. The weather is not helping either. Today, I simply stayed at home and made fish porridge for brunch.

Do you know that I do not like to cook if my mum was around? LOL. I do not like to hear her naggings on my cooking skill. Hehe

Just now, she commented on my porridge that was superb and smooth. :)

All right, since my energy is still available I better finish my tutorials.

I am not complaining...

2010-01-11T23:41:00.000+08:00

School has started. More readings need to do. Looks like I would not go out as often. LOL. Come to think, I have been staying at home and working with my mum most of my vacation days. Hence, I will feel fine with it.

Sometimes, I do envy them who got the time for themselves. They can do and get everything they want. However, as for me, I have to work extra hard to get it. They are lucky.

Well, I am not complaining but I am just tired. Hence, I will just stay in my room and get back to my agenda.

I maybe looking happy and smiling but there are times I am down and that is the best time to get stronger to face the challenges ahead.

If you do not like something, change it. If you cannot change it, change your attitude. Do not complain. –Maya Angelou

Stop complaining and be thankful! :)

I'm blessed. :)

2010-01-06T19:22:00.001+08:00

I thought I would be alone this coming semester since most of my friends are graduated. However, I was wrong. Thank God, adik Richard is taking the same module as me and God knows that I need help with my upcoming calculus. Alhamdulillah.

I have decided to take the normal path (4 years instead of 3/3.5 years) as I do not want to pressure myself and of course, I am not ready to face the working life. Hehehe

Insya’Allah, the last semester will be a great one! :)

P.S. I Love You

2010-01-06T13:03:00.002+08:00

Dear Holly, I don't have much time. I don't mean literally, I mean you're out buying ice cream and you'll be home soon. But I have a feeling this is the last letter, because there is only one thing left to tell you. It isn't to go down memory lane or make you buy a lamp, you can take care of yourself without any help from me. It's to tell you how much you move me, how you changed me. You made me a man, by loving me Holly. And for that, I am eternally grateful... literally. If you can promise me anything, promise me that whenever you're sad, or unsure, or you lose complete faith, that you'll try to see yourself through my eyes. Thank you for the honor of being my wife. I'm a man with no regrets. How lucky am I. You made my life, Holly. But I'm just one chapter in yours. There'll be more. I promise. So here it comes, the big one. Don't be afraid to fall in love again. Watch out for that signal, when life as you know it ends. P.S. I will always love you

Dear Gerry, you said you wanted me to fall in love again, and maybe one day I will. But there are all kinds of love out there. This is my one and only life, And its a great and terrible and short and endless thing, and none of us come out of it alive. I don't have a plan... except, it's time my mom laughed again. She has never seen the world... she has never seen Ireland. So, I'm taking her back where we started... Maybe now she'll understand. I don't know how you did it, but you brought me back from the dead. I'll write to you again soon. P.S... Guess what?

I just love the way they wrote the script and of course I cried watching this movie again and again. The song Love you till the end by The Pogues is playing in my mind. lol

Happy New Year!

2010-01-02T00:33:00.000+08:00

With lots of love,
Humairah Binte Tulmiti

Hari Asyura well spent.

2009-12-28T00:30:00.003+08:00

Masya'Allah. I miss the old time, the time I used to spend in the Masjid or attending any Doa Selamat/Zikir/Selawat events. Allah knows the best. The reasons why I had to go through break up, bringing myself up and maintaining to be the best yet humble and still learning from others.

Masya'Allah. Thank you Meenachi for bringing back my old times. People always said how they wish they could bring back the old times. Actually, they can do so despite their age and time! :)

I must resist and endure!

Time passes by

2009-12-27T12:59:00.004+08:00

I have been busy working for my mum in her new stall. Alhamdulillah. The new stall is a better place for business. Insya’Allah, with Allah’s blessings my mum will get what she wants. :)

Let us put that aside. I think I have lost my touch continuing on what to type after so long of not typing my space here. LOL.

Hence, I shall continue when I have the mood. Feeling shagged after attending one BBQ and one chalet! :)

Selamat Hari Asyura!

The mind...

2009-12-15T23:32:00.003+08:00

You are familiar...

What am I hiding?

Broken Heart.
Someone or anyone could have done something to hurt or damage my heart.
Pieces of me are missing and love seems pretty hard to grasp at the moment.
I have to be strong.
I believe it will get better.
Hence, I have to live, laugh and love!
I am thankful to be given the freedom to speak out what my mind wants.
I know it has been hard on me.

When I am older and my daughter asks me who my first love was.
I do not want to have to pull out the old photo album.
I want to be able to point across the room and say he is sitting right over there.

:)

Responsibility

2009-12-10T02:19:00.002+08:00

I know that I am on school vacation but that does not mean I can jolly enjoy my holiday. I am not complaining that I have to help my parents’ business. In fact, I am enjoying it as I could meet interesting people and improve my interpersonal skills. :)

Please understand me my dear friends, I am the only child stays with my parents. Hence, I do have house chores that I need to do and be there for my parents.

School days, exam days and normal days I still have house chores to do. Unlike some people, when they are studying for exam they can spend hours on it without any disturbance. Be thankful with what you had and stop complaining. :)

Even though, I am the last child and only daughter does not mean my parents always, pamper me. In fact, my parents treat all their children equally.

If you did not see me studying in school does not mean I slack at home doing nothing. Who are you to say that to me? Be grateful that your mum cooks for you delicious meals every day. Be thankful that your mum does your laundry. Be appreciated that your mum does the moping of the house.

One more thing, why should you jealous with me if I always out of Singapore. My parents and I worked hard to earn money and deserved a treat. Do you know that my mum sometimes work until midnight or 2 A.M. to finish her work? Do you know that my dad is no longer young to work 24/7?

I am lucky to get the chance to spend most of my time with my parents. I will miss the moment if they are no longer with me. You will feel the lost when they are gone forever. Now, I miss my late grandma. I miss her chicken curry and Hari Raya gatherings at her place!

So now, treasure what you have. Money for sure makes everyone happy but it would not last long. Do not love your parents because they have the money. Love them because they create you who you are today. :)

How I spent my yesterday?!

2009-11-28T14:47:00.000+08:00

Firstly, I would like to wish Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha to all my Muslim readers. Last year raya, I went to China celebrated with my parents. This year raya, my parents left me alone at home, as they went to Jakarta with my aunts and uncles. All thanks to my exam that I could not tag along! LOL. Somehow, it is a great experience staying alone at home and can study in peace! Woohoo!

I wonder why some people dislike staying at home. I can do so many things at home and of course save money! But that if you do not shop online and cook your own meals. Hehehe.

I cannot wait for next week, as exam will be over and ehem ehem... LOL!

So what if it hurts me
So what if I break down
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear my sound
Don’t care about other pain infront of me
Cause I’m just tryna be happy, yea
Just wanna be happy, yea

Let us be happy as the worst is yet to come! :)

Untukmu, Cintaku Bukan Cinta Biasa

2009-11-21T02:52:00.005+08:00

Untukmu, cintaku bukan cinta biasa.

Kali ini kusadari
Aku telah jatuh cinta
Dari hatiku terdalam
Sungguh aku cinta padamu

Cintaku bukanlah cinta biasa
Jika kamu yang memiliki
Dan Kamu yang temaniku seumur hidupku

Terimalah pengakuanku
Percayalah kepadaku
Semua ini kulakukan
Karena kamu memang untukku

Afgan - Bukan Cinta Biasa

what ever you want to put it as...

2009-11-18T00:53:00.001+08:00

Whenever exam is coming, I will fall sick. I hate what I am feeling right now. Can I faster graduate!!!

Oh yes, I have new tuition assignments next year! Isn’t that fast!!! Alhamdulillah.

Oh yes, how do you feel if suddenly your doctor said, “you have only 6 months to a year to live. I’m sorry; I could not help you much.”

Okay, do not entertain my nonsense. LOL.

All right, time to sleep. I’m sleepy!!! Please pray for my exam that I can do well for it. Thank you, may God bless you for your kindness. Mmmmuuuaah.

Pressurize?

2009-11-10T22:53:00.003+08:00

Indonesian maids in Singapore pursue degree programmes.

SINGAPORE: Some 125 Indonesian maids in Singapore are studying for degrees through an initiative started by the Indonesian Embassy.

It began in March this year and the initiative is believed to be the first of its kind in the region.

The maids attend the Singapore Indonesian School which offers degree programmes ranging from accounting to public administration on Sundays.

The degree programmes on offer are recognised by the civil service as well as many private companies in Indonesia.

You can read the full story in TODAY on Wednesday.

- CNA/ir

Do you feel unsafe? If one day they are taking over your job or maybe career? Are we going to do better by taking Master? Or maybe work overseas? Something to ponder.

That's not for you to decide. - Talentime

2009-11-09T18:00:00.017+08:00

Don't feel like going.

You have to.
Why?
Because you're in pain, more better time to be brilliant.
I don't want to be brilliant.
That’s not for you to decide.

Taken from Talentime.

Talentime is the best ever feature film directed and written by the late Yasmin Ahmad as compared to others that I have watched.

Like what she described in her blog, “...as a story full of joy and pain, hope and despair, a host of beautifully-written songs, and rich, rich characters.”

Now, let the photos bring you into the scenes of the movie. :)

What do you think an Indian guy dating a Malay girl?

Would you take a Chinese Muslim lady to be your maid?

Accepting the past.

The hidden talent to be discovered.

The lost, our late Yasmin Ahmad.

I would like to thank Azziana for lending the DVD to me. As you know, I do not have the luxury to watch it in the Cinema. Due to, so many errands to catch up. Till next update. :)

No more spending...

2009-11-04T22:22:00.000+08:00

My aim for next year is to save as much as 1K per month. I am looking for part time jobs besides giving tuitions. No more shopping, no more taking cabs (I have been cutting down a lot on this! Weehoo!), and eat more home food (I have been cooking often lately. Goody!)

Now, my room is in a mess. I was clearing my wardrobe and to jot down what I have. Do you know that my dad screamed when he saw my wardrobe full of clothes hanging!!! LOL. One side full of my baju kurungs and kebayas, middle side my daily clothing and the other end my work clothing.

I have the other wardrobe that I shared with my mum too. LOL. Seriously, now it is time for me to mix and match my clothes. However, the problem I am facing right now is, I am thin! Most of my old clothes are big for me due to my cubby look last time. Maybe, that is the reason why I shop for new clothes. That reminds me of women with their lame reasons! LOL.

Okay okay, I better tidy up my room and sleep early. I will be going to school early tomorrow! :)

The memories...

2009-10-29T18:12:00.003+08:00

Soon, my blog will be a year old. That reminds me those days I was down and down while preparing for exams. Only my closed ones knew about it and where there for me. Those were the days I had to be strong. Thank you to someone who said I am (insert the word). I will survive and continue my life as I planned. My future will be brighter and happier. There is no stopping in my journey. You will feel sorry for what you have done to me. I may forgive however I will never forget my history being with (insert the name who you think will be).

SSP - Jom Balik Kampung!

2009-10-25T00:01:00.002+08:00

Jom Balik Kampung! Sebuah persembahan yang cukup perasanya walaupun penutup banyak tanda tanya. Mungkin pengarah boleh mengatakan yang ayahnya itu berpenyakit “dementia” dimana beliau hilang ingatan. Jadi ia ibaratkan mengimbas kembali apa yang telah terjadi melalui mimpi. Ini hanya satu saranan sahaja ia Tuan Pengarah. :)

Puisi, sajak, peribahasa, dikir barat, komedi, tarian dan nyanyian kesemuanya dipentaskan dalam satu masa yang bukan mudah dilakukan. Bukan itu sahaja, interaksi bersama para penonton adalah satu cara yang bernas untuk menarik perhatian mereka.

Yang paling saya gemari adalah lagu dimainkan secara langsung dan para penyanyi yang mempunyai vokal yang mantap. Para pelakon juga hebat pada malam itu. Mereka berjaya menjiwai dan bersahaja membawa watak mereka masing-masing.

Syabas saya ucapkan kepada Sang Singa Purba yang berjaya mementaskan Jom Balik Kampung. Insya’Allah lain kali kita akan berjumpa dengan sebuah persembahan yang lagi asyik dan bertenaga.

Gosh it reminds me writing a review for Nurhayat. :)

The meaning of a degree...

2009-10-22T20:01:00.003+08:00

All right, it is time for a proper update. I have been busy writing on my personal diary instead of my blog. As you know, blog is a place, which is unsafe to pen down everything. Too many busybody and later they will contact me out of blue to say that I cannot write this and that as somehow they felt it related to them. Lol.

Leave that aside. I only left with three weeks to end school term and five weeks to exam. Gosh! That is damn fast and I have yet to finish my Sample and Survey project. I have to stop playing Bejeweled Blitz on Facebook! I must get serious in my studies!

Speaking of studies, a friend of mine asked me a question, which in the end leads to a dispute topic. She asked, “Mai, so what if someone got better result than we did. However, he/she took it from private institutions?”

Bottom line my friend, be thankful for what you have achieved. Do not compare with what you are doing with others. Do what you are best at and do not follow them. It is okay to feel left out but you should give your best at what you are doing.

For example, I am doing Mathematical Sciences. Not many Malays want to take this Major especially a graduate from Polytechnic. To be frank, I do not like what I am doing. Only a few of my friends knew about it. I decided to change my course. I got it but I have to change school. Another story to be told. Well, in the end I stay and continue the battle, as I do not want people to say that I am coward and run away from the challenges.

What I want to tell you is that, local or private university there is no much different. The different is the course that you want to do. If you like, for sure you will excel even how tough it could be. Nowadays, people are saying about honours. However, do you have the ability to respect others and willing to take up new challenges? That what I call you have honours. The ability to stand up from a fall and learn the mistake that you have done is something that most of us fail to do. Ask yourself, why do we need a degree if we are happy with our career? Do we bring our degree along to heaven? You know how to play 4D or I mean invest your money. So, do you still need a degree in order to live comfortable and earn bucks by working for someone?

Human are always jealous with others and forget to be thankful with one and only God. Be humble, talk less and listen to what others want to say and share with you.

Do not underestimate what you can do and this is not the time where you have to make your parents happy or proud of you with their want. Now, think for yourself what you want to achieve and make you happy. If you are happy, I am sure your parents, siblings, friends and many more will be happy for you.

Believe in yourself and have faith in God. :)

Jangan Menyerah - D'Masiv

2009-10-19T18:12:00.003+08:00

Tak ada manusia
Yang terlahir sempurna
Jangan kau sesali
Segala yang telah terjadi

Kita pasti pernah
Dapatkan cubaan yang berat
Seakan hidup ini
Tak ada ertinya lagi

Reff 1:
Syukuri apa yang ada
Hidup adalah anugerah
Tetap jalani hidup ini
Melakukan yang terbaik

Tak ada manusia
Yang terlahir sempurna
Jangan kau sesali
Segala yang telah terjadi

Ulang Reff 1

Reff 2:
Tuhan pasti kan menunjukkan
Kebesaran dan kuasaNya
Bagi hambaNya yang sabar
Dan tak kenal putus asa

Jangan menyerah... 6x

Ulang Reff 1 & 2

Dan tak kenal putus asa

Alhamdulillah. Sentiasa bersyukur diatas pemberianNya dan tetap berusaha untuk mencapai keinginan kita. :)

Promise me something....

2009-10-19T16:20:00.003+08:00

LOL. Love how Russell Peters explained about Women think all the time. Promise me something, not to lie to me. wahahaha...

SangSingaPurba - Jom Balik Kampung!

2009-10-15T00:17:00.006+08:00

Sang Singa Purba, a sub comm of Singapore Polytechnic Malay Language Society would like to extend an invitation to you for Muzikaraya 2009 show called "Jom Balik Kampung". This show is in conjunction with the Hari Raya festivities for the month of October and also to welcome our new batch of talented lions.

Sang Singa purba, salah satu sub comm dari Persatuan Bahasa Melayu Politeknik Singapura ingin megundang anda untuk Muzikaraya 2009 bertajuk Jom Balik Kampung. Pementasan ini dipentaskan bersamaan dengan perayaan Hari Raya dan juga untuk mengalu-alukan kedatangan anak-anak Singa yang baru dan berbakat bersama kita.

Synopsis of Jom Balik Kampung...
This year we are portraying an array of malay tradition and culture in the malay community such as 'gotong royong' which means a sense of community spirit within the malay society. It portrays the importance of kin ship, the relationship with every family members and also the bond we share in the community.

This story unfolds with a family, like any other family that shares the ups and downs in life. Each of the family members lead different kinds of lives as they left the village. Despite this difference the family manage to come back together and discover how close they actually are.

Sinopsis Jom Balik Kampung...
Tahun ini kami ingin menerapkan tradisi dan adat istiadat masyarakat melayu seperti 'bergotong royong', kepentingan pertalian persaudaraan dan juga kasih sayang yang tidak akan luput sesama saudara.

Cerita ini mengisahkan tentang sebuah keluarga yang penuh dengan cerita suka dan duka, setiap ahli keluarga mempunyai kehidupan yang sungguh berbeza namun mereka dapat kembali bersama pada hari yang mulia ini dan mendapat tahu berapa akrabnya mereka sekeluarga sebenarnya.

Prices of the play:
Matinee (for students) : $5
Grand Show : $10 ($2 will be donated to charity )

Dress code : Malay Costume

Contact: Syafiqah - 82688595 or Iffa - 84483605
Website: SangSingaPurba
Facebook: Muzikaraya 2009 - Jom Balik Kampung

Please do contact us if you are interested to attend the event as soon as possible. Thus, we can reserve tickets for you, as the tickets are selling fast!

We look forward to your attendance! :D

PS: Feel free to spread it around to all your friends and family! The more the merrier. :D

Love me? Or ...

2009-10-14T12:03:00.002+08:00

Something to ponder upon.

Here is something quoted from the Oprah Winfrey's show,

Girls, once he starts saying he is too busy, or he is unsure, just let it go before he does more damage. Even when he says,

“Babe, I really love you, but at this point of time, I am unsure about us. I have so much stuff to do, like studies and all, and I am just unsure..”

The first “I love you” only means “I do not want to hurt you“. And the unsure means “I am not that into you.”

Leave him now rather than feel sorry at the end. :)

Darlin’ It Ain’t Easy - Zee Avi

2009-10-09T16:58:00.004+08:00

Darlin’ It Ain’t Easy - Zee Avi

I’m down to my last
stick of cigarette
I’m down to the last thought
in my head

You saw me
packing my bags
You asked me
if I was coming back
And I told you
that I wasn’t sure
and I’m
5 steps away from out the door

Darlin’ it ain’t easy
for me to say goodbye
but I have found myself another guy

You look confused
And I dont blame you
But you’re never around
enough for me to love you
me to love you

Darlin’ you don’t deserve me
you don’t deserve my love
I had plenty to give
but you shrugged it off

Don’t think I dont know
about the hair on the pillow
and it seems like what we had was just a show
was it all
just a show?

Darlin’ it aint easy
for us to say goodbye
I just hope that we’ll have better lives

Taken from Zee Avi - Music.

Her Daughter's Life

2009-10-08T23:51:00.001+08:00

To be frank, being the youngest and only daughter is not easy. Every night, I have to be there for my menopause mum, listen attentively to her wants and needs. Sometimes, how I wish my brothers were living with my parents and understand my parents’ feelings.

Some of you may not understand what I am going through. Wait until your siblings are married then challenges will come to you. Treat challenges as a good thing to make you a better person and closer with your family.

Put that aside.

How is my life?

Interesting life with unexpected incidents happened. Some of you knew what happened to my elder brother’s house, my house with flying light (thank God, my mum was safe), with my conditions, Raya visiting with Kamal’s friends, midterm tests and many more.

No matter what, I have to be strong, patient and sincere. God will give challenges to the one He loves and cares. :)

Oh yes, I am thankful to have Kamal with me. He is everything to me and I believe he will be my faith. Alhamdulillah. :) God knows the best!

Promise

2009-10-01T01:54:00.002+08:00

Life is unpredictable. One day you are smiling happily, the next day you are frowning and clueless on what to do next.

Incidents happened for reasons, to make you stronger and have faith in God. Whenever I am in need for answers, God will always show me the signs indirectly or directly. Hence, never lose faith in God. Thank you Al-Mighty for the blessings you given me thus far.

Dear God, continue to show me the meanings of life, happiness, patience and tranquility. :)

I need your blessings to help me through with my Mid-term tests too. I thank you, God for helping me finding the real me. :)

Slowly, I am recovering from the depression I am going through. Why should I be sad if someone out there enjoying his/her life with others. I should be thankful I still have friends, who I can call real friends and family, who are true to me.

I will not let others control my life again. I promise.

Swensens Great Deal!

2009-09-29T15:09:00.004+08:00

What are you waiting for? Treat yourself to Swensens! :)

Food Fight! LOL

2009-09-25T13:03:00.004+08:00

LOL. This is funny. Food Fight!!! Read the following articles readers. At least you know what is happening around you. :)

Food war in cyberspace

Eat and let live: Chef Wan

Malacca claims Hainanese chicken rice

How dare Malaysia says it owns Hainanese chicken rice and other local dishes

Ng: No intention to patent local food

I really don't understand why they wanna talk about this. Just eat and enjoy the food! LOL.

Yasmin Ahmad: A Tribute

2009-09-23T20:08:00.003+08:00

Yasmin Ahmad: A Tribute
(A showcase of The Storyteller’s film collection)

http://tickets.cathay.com.sg

Select by Cineplex: Cathay Cineplex Cineleisure Orchard.

Online box office will open tomorrow, Thursday 24/9

It may come online at midnight tonight.

You can also buy tickets at All Cathay Cineplex locations in Singapore.

This is the Tribute web banner. Please share it with your friends.

Thank you all

Lighthouse Pictures
http://www.lhp.com.sg/yasmin

The W Ride...

2009-09-22T20:30:00.003+08:00

Firstly, I would like to wish all my Muslim readers, Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir dan Batin. :)

Secondly, I would not be updating my blog as often due to school commitment, house chores, raya visiting and of course spending time with my loved ones. In fact, my eyes half shut while typing this entry.

Thirdly, come to think, I love this year Ramadhan and Raya. Praise to Allah for everything He had given to my family and me. He knows the best for His people. :)

Lastly, I want to sleep. I have been sleeping late ever since the day of filming! ssshhhhh

"Like a W-shaped recovery-up very fast, but there may be a second dip. It is possible." ~ PM Lee

Tahajjud Cinta - Siti Nurhaliza

2009-09-18T00:58:00.001+08:00

Tahajjud Cinta - Siti Nurhaliza

Kau datang ketika duka
dan bintang bercahya
tunjukku ke jalan syurga (x2)

Ku haus di tengah laut
lemas mencari tempat berpaut
kirimkan aku kekuatan
serta pedoman di kesesatan

Ku sunyi dalam gembira
perih pedih tanggung derita
sungguh aku bukan wali
yang suci dari hina dan benci

Kau datang ketika duka
dan bintang bercahya
tunjukku ke jalan syurga

Terlalu lama aku mencuba
terlalu banyak
cinta yang ku damba
tiada yang sempurna
hanyalah fana
Tuhan, ampuni hamba-Mu

Kau datang ketika duka
dan bintang bercahya
tunjukku ke jalan syurga

Ku rebah di dada malam
memecah dendam yang lama diam
ku tanggalkan baju dunia
dakapku dengan selimut syurga
ya Tuhanku hanya padamu
tempat mengadu segala rindu
limpahi ku rahmat kasihmu
dalam tahajjud cinta bersujud

Lagunya boleh di dengar melalui lelaman Tahajjud Cinta.

A set of ring and necklace from him.... :)

2009-09-17T00:26:00.001+08:00

Aku sayang banget sama dia emak! Lol.

He gave me a ring and necklace with a pendant! Thank you my love.

Speaking of that, I recall my 13th birthday he gave me a necklace with a heart shape pendant. He surprised me by placing it inside my bag which I still figuring how he did that. I love the way he surprises me.

I love him loads. :D

Upin and Ipin Geng Muzikal!

2009-09-15T18:52:00.001+08:00

Aku suka sangat Upin dan Ipin! :D

My heart only for Kamal... :)

2009-09-15T18:20:00.005+08:00

Lela Marina said to Kamal, “She looks happier than before.” I wonder how she knows, as I am not close to her. LOL

Anyway, thank you for the compliment saying I am happy. Indeed, I am happy until I want to let it go. LOL. You might think I am crazy saying that. I shall not explain here, as it is too personal. Right Nurul?

I am thankful to have Kak Lin and Nurul who are always there for me. I am fine now, as I have shared everything to him. What happened between him and me let it be history okay? :)

No matter what, I am grateful to have him. He showers me with love instead of anger when I told him about my feelings. He gives me the freedom on what I want to do. He did not force me to share my feelings if I do not want to. He respects and understands my characters. He knows I am one lazy woman but he did not complain. (Lazy does not mean I did not do house chores and cooking. LOL. Eh wait and baking too!!! I made kuih tart for the first time alone! My mum was my supervisor. LOL.)

Kak Lin and Nurul, you were right to say,”When you want to feel happy instead of depressing. You did not take him from her. I repeat, you did not take him from her. He left her for good.” LOL

I should be happy to have Kamal back with me. He can do house chores, cooking, does not feel strange go market and bakes too! LOL. Praise to Allah for hearing my prayers and fulfilled them. I am truly blessed. I should treasure the love I have now. I should think for myself and my future will be bright like a sun! :)

Thank you everyone for still believing in me that I can find love. Thank you to my parents for encouraging not to giving up. Thank you Kamal for still loving me despite what happened. :D

Unresolved.

2009-09-14T02:19:00.005+08:00

Love is so powerful because being loved causes one to love oneself. Nothing contributes to the self-image more than being loved by another. When the words,"I love you" are expressed to you for the first time, your world blossoms, your heart glows with inspiration, confidence and thoughts of the mountains you can move. It is more than an emotional kick; suddenly you like yourself more than you ever have before. ~ pravsworld.com

Life is unpredictable, as God wants us to feel both sweetness and bitterness. With that, we will appreciate our life and beloved ones.

In life too, we expect the unexpected. Hence, give and take with your plans. Do not feel sorry or disheartened if your plan did not follow your way. Sometimes, it is better to be vice versa, blessings in disguise.

So now, should I let the love go?

Even though you were the one who broke my heart...
Your the one I want to fix it...
<3

You can't always get what you one...

2009-09-12T14:34:00.004+08:00

WOW! Aidilfitri is less than a week! I want to hire a house cleaner can. To clean my windows, vacuum my room, do laundry and lots more. LOL.

Nah, it is okay. I prefer to do by myself, as I want to feel the satisfaction. :)

Anyway, for the past one week, many incidents happened to me. Alhamdulillah, everything is manageable now. With perseverance, determination and God's willing I am able to win the battle between my emotional and me. LOL. It was tiring enough to tell my mind that everything will be all right.

I feel bad letting Kamal be part of it. I am sorry for not believing in you, sorry for being selfish to only think of your past, you deserved to be happy with other women for the past six years, sorry for calling you deceiver. Maybe, it is true; I am still struggle finding men because nobody is quite good enough for me or vice versa.

Until now, I lost my confidence in meeting new or old people especially future family in laws. LOL. I do not know why. Every time my mum talks about in laws, I will see the word fear in front of me. I always think I do not suit to be a good daughter in law hence I do not want to get married. LOL.

I guess that is why I want to continue study but until when I want to run from reality. Do I deserve to be in love or loved? What are the criteria to be a pleasant daughter in law? Do you have to be smart like getting a master/PhD? Good in Cooking, sewing, handling your husband and children need.

I do not wish to fail for the third time after I have given everything. However, in life, expect the unexpected.

If I were to leave Singapore next year, it is for the better. :)

Wanna know who is Miss Singapore World 2009?

2009-09-06T11:30:00.009+08:00

Presenting our new Miss Singapore World 2009! Miss Ris Low!

Oh my oh my. I know my English Language is not up to standard but hearing what she said I really hope she would not participate for upcoming Miss World. So much of speak GOOD English and no Singlish campaign!

Please do not get me wrong. I am not saying that she cannot participate in this competition. However, she has to see her weakness and improve on it to represent Singapore. I wonder what the criteria to be part of it.

Did you realise that she practically won most of the titles? Gosh! Then the dress that she wore is very different from the other contestants.

Haiz...I wonder who were the judges. And Idza, how I wish you participated in this competition. For sure, the crown will be yours!

My lovely Hajjar & Idza...

2009-09-02T18:09:00.001+08:00

Hajjar!!! We went to break our fast together last Wednesday at Fig & Olive. How forgetful!!! Initial plan was to eat in school. However, since both of us sick and tired with school food we decided to head down Jurong Point. As usual, I did not finish my food and so Hajjar helped me. Hehehe.

Ish ish... Oh yes, IDZA!!! Where are you? I sent SMS to you but did not get a reply from you. Hajjar gave you a call, you did not answer. Merajuk eh dengan kita? Alalalalalalala....Nak kita belajar ice cream? Janganlah merajuk nanti M marah kita... :(

Jumble Up!

2009-09-01T01:22:00.004+08:00

First of all, Happy Teacher’s Day to all teachers who read my blog! :D
Here is something for you!

God understood our thirst for knowledge,
our need to be led by someone wiser,
someone who see potential
and bring out the best in others.

Hence, God made a Teacher! That is you! :D

All right, put that aside. Today mark the 11th day of fasting. Seems so fast and everything is normal. I have been breaking my fast at home often and that is a good sign of saving up! :D

Nevertheless, I did break my fast outside, one with Nurul at Geylang and the other with Kamal at Arnold, Pasir Ris.

Nurul has not been to Geylang new market hence being the nicest and patience friend I brought her to that place. We spent 4 hours in Geylang!!! LOL. I think that was the longest ever I spent my time there. No matter what, mission accomplished! Yeah! :D

Anyway, I had a great time catching up with Nurul my forever meenachi. Oh my gosh! Nurul! Aku teringatkan seseorang tu yang duduk di depan kita. LOL.

Arnold! It has been ages since the last time I went to eat at Arnold. Hence, when Kamal asked me where we want to break our fast a place that I am dying to go I said Arnold. I know that Geylang will surely full, so we went to Pasir Ris. I love the ambience and feel serene. Thanks my love! :D

Oh yes, I watched soccer match between Man U VS Arsenal. Now I know why Man U always wins. They have the luck but not the skills!!! Furthermore, referee also always side them!!! Alah, it is only a game but still!!! wahahahaha

For your info, Kamal does not watch soccer match but I do and depend on my mood. LoL

All right, I should sleep now. Today school starts at 8.30am and I have tutoring in the evening. Another pack day that I am not looking forward and I miss my Sayang.

An Attention Seeker?

2009-08-29T01:12:00.000+08:00

A friend of mine said, “Mai, recite the Al-Quran rather than you read her blog. I am sure it will heal your soul and mind. Believe in yourself and trust him. He loves and adores you.”

Yes, I am reciting the Al-Quran before that friend of mine said that to me. :)
Alhamdulillah, it does help and I am learning the technique to control my emotional. I admit, I do cry at night thinking back what happened to me in the past. I wish I could erase the memory so that it would not haunt me. However, I have no control over it hence I have to live with it permanently.

From here, my brain seems blank to pen down my thoughts. Am I an attention seeker? What say you?

Jika Engkau Pergi - Imran Ajmain

2009-08-26T23:24:00.005+08:00

Written by Imran Ajmain/Sulu Sarawak
Composed by Imran Ajmain
Arranged by Eddie Marzuki

Verse 1

Bermulanya semua hanya dengan rasa
ada saja yang tak kena
Rupanya kau berkasih
Menyingkir setia
Sandiwara penuh dusta

Prechorus 1

Kini ku beri satu amaran
Jangan nanti jadi cabaran
Aku ingin kau memadam kenangan
Menjadi mimpi berterbangan

Chorus

Jika engkau pergi, bulan dan bintang tetap masih di langit
Jika engkau pergi, air mengalir takkan berhenti
Jangan khuatir tentang diri ku
Ku janji takkan merindui mu

Verse 2

Bermusim resah hadir membelai
Menyentuh hati kecewa
Janji sehidup semati
Tinggal tiada lagi
Impian hancur depan mata

Prechorus 2

Semakin terungkap kepastian
Biarlah ku rela melepaskan
Pada mu cinta cuma lah mainan
Sekadar untuk senda bersama

Chorus

Bridge

Puas sudah ku berikan engkau segalanya
Jalan cerita pun nyata akan berubah

Solo/Music Break

Chorus to End

Tahniah Imran Ajmain atas kejayaan yang diperolehi! :D

SMILE!

2009-08-25T14:46:00.002+08:00

I’m going to smile and make you think I’m happy, I’m going to laugh, so you don’t see me cry, I’m going to let you go in style, and even if it kills me I’m still going to smile....You know that you are in love when the hardest thing to do is say goodbye...True goodbyes are the ones never said or explained...

Nice! :D

Renungkan

2009-08-22T06:29:00.002+08:00

Orang yang BIJAK akan selalu menyediakan waktu untuk MEMBACA,
kerana membaca itu sumber hikmah.

Menyediakan masa untuk TERTAWA,
kerana tertawa itu muziknya jiwa.

Menyedikan waktu untuk BERFIKIR,
kerana berfikir itu pokok kemajuan.

Menyediakan waktu untuk BERAMAL,
kerana beramal itu pangkal kejayaan.

Menyediakan waktu untuk BERSENDA,
kerana bersenda itu akan membuat muda selalu.

Menyediakan waktu untuk BERSENAM,
kerana bersenam itu akan menyihatkan anggota tubuh.

Dan menyediakan waktu untuk BERIBADAT,
kerana beribadat itu adalah ibu dari segala ketenangan JIWA.

Insya'Allah.

Selamat Menjalani Ibadah Puasa. :)

Dream

2009-08-21T14:38:00.002+08:00

I felt something is missing
Without knowing what I have found.
I felt I found something
Without knowing what I was looking for.
And as if I'm still looking for it.

Everyone has a dream
Some of them are pursuing it to realize it
Some of them are retreating and throw it away
Some of them are doing nothing
And some of them are just stay quiet
And only keep it for themselves
for the rest of their lives
And I will be that last kind of them.

You have me today,tomorrow and so on...

xoxo
Missy Mai

On the Stage... :)

2009-08-19T22:41:00.002+08:00

I am typing this entry whilst watching Singapore Idol. I saw three familiar faces, one from SSP, one who is/was an actor and the other he took part in Suria reality show, Jemput.

Nothing much to say about the Singapore Idol however what I could see is drama mama. Tonight episode is singing as a group. Well, to be frank it is not easy to sing as a group with different personalities and pitching.

Oh my gosh! Flash back those NPCC days I sang and acted in a competition with Raudah and Faizah for SANA competition under EAST zone. LOL. We did pretty well and got second place. To those who know me, for sure you know that I hate singing. Now, I am wondering where I got that confidence to sing in front of people!

Primary school too I sang and acted for Hari Raya show. LOL. I was the lead actor and singer. Oh my oh my! Now tell me people, how much I miss being an actor.

Kindergarten I was a dancer with me wearing heavy make up as if Chinese Opera. Eh! I have the photos! LOL.

I shall upload the photos once I have the time! :D

I need Security!

2009-08-16T22:38:00.002+08:00

Oh my gosh! In the afternoon, I was feeling insecure for what ever the reasons were. Then to distract some of my time from doing tutorials and for fun and laughter, I took this quiz, What Do You Need Most? Then the result...

You Need Security

To be happy in life, you need to feel as secure and grounded as possible.

You have to know that things will be okay no matter what. You plan for the worst.

You tend to be cautious, and you always think of the long term consequences before you act.

Living a low-key, responsible life is the only way to ensure that you can truly relax.

What Do You Need Most?

Oh my gosh! Thanks for the answer! I really need to relax and trust myself. Stay positive Mai! So now, who can give me the security?

Miss you..

2009-08-15T00:40:00.001+08:00

I miss you, yes I do.
You are the one for me, yes it is true.
I wanna dream of you.
Good night!

Colmar Tropicale

2009-08-11T18:28:00.010+08:00

Let me share with you a few photos taken with my Panasonic DMX-FX01 during my stay in Colmar Tropicale, Pahang.

Love the combination of pink and yellow. I think I wanna have these colours for my baju raya. What say you?

Oh my gosh! I remember snapping this photo as low as possible to include the clear water. Then I almost fell down as the floor was slippery. However, I love the end product. How about you?

The pure water.

Can you open your mouth widely? Wahahaha

Love the golden orange texture.

I did not use zoom function to capture it. So near and I fear it will get me. wahahaha.

My parents who love to travel. Then slowly, I am following their footstep. LoL. Thank you Emak and Abah for the short getaway. No more travelling as school has begun and Abah keep my passport! Damn! Cannot go Johor Bahru to eat Kenny Rogers. LoL.

Firasat...

2009-08-11T18:14:00.003+08:00

Firasat - Marcell

Kemarin Kulihat Awan Membentuk Wajahmu
desah Angin Meniupkan Namamu
tubuhku Terpaku

semalam Bulan Sabit Melengkungkan Senyummu
tabur Bintang Serupa Kilau Auramu
aku Pun Sadari, Ku Segera Berlari

Cepat Pulang
cepat Kembali, Jangan Pergi Lagi
firasatku Ingin Kau Tuk Cepat Pulang
cepat Kembali, Jangan Pergi Lagi

alirnya Bagai Sungai Yang Mendamba Samudera
ku Tahu Pasti Kemanakan Ku Bermuara
semoga Ada Waktu, Sayangku

ku Percaya Alam Pun Berbahasa
ada Makna Di Balik Semua Pertanda
firasat Ini Rasa Rindukah Atau Kah Hanya Bayang
aku Tak Peduli, Ku Terus Berlari

Kotak Hati - Hujan

2009-08-05T17:36:00.003+08:00

Kotak Hati - Hujan

Tak usah kau terangkan ku tahu
potret wajahmu di setiap penjuru
curahkan deritamu padaku
biarku rasa apa yang kau lalu

Terang terang
bersama rasa sayang
ku biarkan kau terbang
terang terang
sudut kecil ku isi
untuk senyuman mu lagi

Berbaring renung kita ke bulan
lagu yang ku tulis ku nyanyikan
lagu cinta tentang kita berdua
yang kan kita kenangi hingga tiba masa

Terang terang
bersama rasa sayang
ku biarkan kau terbang
terang terang
sudut kecil ku isi
untuk senyuman mu lagi

Mimpi mimpi
yang tak kembali
aku janji
janji takkan pergi

Ku hadiahkan kotak hatiku ini kepadamu agarmu mengerti isi hatiku ini. Ku tidak minta ia terjadi begini. Masa silam mengajarku agar sentiasa berhati-hati. Tetapi ku silap hingga membuat dirimu menderita. Mimpi-mimpi yang dulu tidak akan kembali. Ku berjanji akan sentiasa disisimu. Begitu juga denganmu, jangan tinggalkan daku lagi.

New Look!

2009-08-05T04:58:00.004+08:00

WOW! I am still fully awake even though the time is 5 AM!!! Because of my eyes are still widely open I have decided to give a new look for my blog. I wanted something fresh and resemble my character. Hence, I have chose pink,white and black, the colors I love most. Then the lady is similar like me who has long hairs and the confuse look! lol.

Alright,I wanna rest for awhile. Continue reading my blog! :D

I will update the online shopping links shortly.

s/t/o/m/p/s/g

2009-08-04T20:29:00.003+08:00

Do you think by them creating s/t/o/m/p/s/g is a good thing to educate Singaporeans on their ill behavior? Not only Singapore they commented but our neighboring countries too.

The more I surf the website the more I feel that they have nothing better to do. Are they good enough to spot other peoples' fault? Who are they? Even God, did not do that when we had done sins. Do you think you are making the matter worst?

Furthermore, they love to spot it but they did not give any constructive ideas to correct it. They love to condemn other people. I wonder how they feel if their stories posted in the website of their inappropriate manner.

Where is the respect my dear readers? No wonder, generations nowadays do not know the meaning of respect. How to respect if you did not give us the respect the individual should have.

Do not get me wrong by typing this entry. I still find that some of the contents are relevant for the government to take note on the surrounding. However, some I found disturbing and should not be in.

Think about it. Do not do it because of fame, as it would not last long. You will suffer the greatest.

Grow up people! :D

2009-08-03T22:19:00.004+08:00

People come and go as they wished into your life. They would not care what your feeling is. On the other hand, we cannot please everyone. We are humans who have flaws that cannot avoid.

Do you feel frustrated when your friends come to you when they are in need? On the other hand, how about you are concern for them and you advice or even said Hi to them but did not get the treatment that you expected?

Well, that is life. I used to organise events and meet ups but now because I do not have the time or simply my parents love last minute plans I could not do it. Therefore, I found that more and more friends are away from me. Not because I am lonely but I feel that are they forcing themselves to go out with me last time? Now, I know who my true friends are. I am thankful to God that He showed me the meaning of friends.

I do have friends who do not want to befriend with me just because I am with my drama friends. I do have friends that hate me just because I befriend with their enemies. I do have friends that jealous of me as I got what they want but could not get it hence they do not want to befriend with me.

Are my friends wearing masquerade? Well, they denied for sure. Do you know I have lost my memories because I was depressed back then in year one in University? I do not wish to remember my pasts hence, that is how I lost it. Names of my friends, their faces and many more I could not recall. Therefore, I am sorry if I have forgotten your names or past events.

No matter what happened to me, I would always search for happiness even it is temporary. I used to have headaches thinking of my friends’ life. Like asking myself, how are they doing right now? Am I doing the right thing for them? Why are they ignoring me? Did I do something wrong until I hurt them?

There were many more questions lingering in my mind. Right now, what I could do is praying for my friends their safety, happiness and wealth.

My friends, I will always remember your incalculable kindness, invaluable guidance and precious prayers to me.

Stop being childish and grow up people! Stop wasting your life by hating people. See the beautiful world together and be thankful to God's gifts. :D

I love you, Allah.

Happy Belated Birthday Kak Lin!

2009-08-03T22:16:00.002+08:00

My dearest Kak Lin,

You're such a good example
Of what a sister-in-law should be
We always get along so well
Even when we disagree.

You're so patient
And understanding
You don't ask for anything
You're never demanding.

You're so quick to give
And such a joy to be around
You're such a good person
You deserve a special crown.

You have a good heart
You're honest and true
You're the best sister-in-law
And I really love you, Kak Lin.

xoxo
Missy Mai

Mai sexy hot chick...

2009-07-29T23:51:00.002+08:00

For fun and laughter, I checked out what does 'Mai' stands for at Urban Dictionary.

Guess what?

1.mai

synonymous to a really really hot asian chick.
DUDE! Check out that mai.

2.Mai

Vietnamese for "Cherry Blossom"
The girl preferred to be called "Mai".

3.Mai

Stands for good luck, and a very pretty flower
I bought one of those Mai flowers for New Year's

4.mai

mai gurls are hot,sexy,understanding,sensitive,cute, and everything else you can think of...
damn... that gurl Mai... shits... she's everything i wanted!!!

And many more...lols

Then I checked July.

1.July

A month when mostly the hottest girls are born
That girls so hot she must be born in July

2.July

The month where the most amazing girls are born. These girls are hot, sexy, and incredibly irresistible. Not only do they have an appealing body but they are intelligent as well. Every girl wants to be born in July.
"Man, that girl is super sexy. Her birthday must be in July."

"My girlfriend was so irresistible yesterday. I couldn't keep my hands off her. She really is a July girl."

LOLS! I cannot help it bursting when reading the definition. Must be the sushi I had eaten just now and shopping with Kamal to get new dresses for me. :D

Let's talk about soccer!

2009-07-28T22:40:00.002+08:00

Do you see any familiar face in this photo?

Abg Mamat! He is a die hard fan of Liverpool. He is very lucky to get Kak Imah as his wife who got him a ticket to watch the match between Liverpool versus Singapore last weekend. :D
You can see how happy he is in the photo!

Speaking of soccer, reminds me of yesterday soccer match I played with NTU friends. It was great and the best part I scored a goal that not everyone anticipated it! Muahahahaha
I guess the tomboyish is still part of me. Let it be this way, as I love to be unique! :D

Yasmin Ahmad Tribute song by Raja Muizz

2009-07-28T00:46:00.002+08:00

Yasmin Ahmad Tribute song by Raja Muizz

Why do the good people go,
I'm not supposed to question it no,
But why do the good people go,
Close your eyes as a sign of respect,

All will remember the day,
When u left us and went away,
and We know that you had to go,
So we'll close our eyes as a sign of respect

Born on the 1st of July,
Was a girl who would touch the sky,
Who'd make the impossible, possible,
by creating movies rated incredible,

An imagination equal to Da Vinci,
The hope for change like Mandela,
A vision just like our Obama,
She delivered to us touching drama

You will be remembered,
Like all the greats and their efforts,
For all the joy and laughter,
From the people, to the cast to directors,

For the support and care of your family,
We pray that they find peace and harmony,
Remember you will be remembered,
And honored with the highest honor,

I remember watching your first movie,
About an interracial love story,
How a simple plot just like that,
Could capture millions just like that,

How you saw the world through my eyes,
With the movie Talentime,
You really heard my generation,
With the gift of your creations

To view the video click here.

Kantoi Sing Along!

2009-07-19T12:39:00.002+08:00

I love this song! Relax, catchy and sempoi!

Reminds me of someone...Muahahahahaha...

Anyway, yesterday was my 23rd Birthday! The day I had to work from morning till late evening, impromptu dinner with my family and kamal and went fishing with my maternal families. Birthday cutting with Siti Sa'aidah's brownies cake. (Siti, they commented that its superb! Sudah boleh buka business. :D )

More update on next entry!

I'll never let you go....

2009-07-15T22:54:00.006+08:00

Candle on the Water by Helen Reddy

Photo credits to falln_angel

I'll be your candle on the water
My love for you will always burn
I know you're lost and drifting
But the clouds are lifting
Don't give up you'll have somewhere to turn

I'll be your candle on the water
'Till every wave is warm and bright
My soul is there beside you
Let this candle guide you
Soon you'll see a golden stream of light

A cold and friendless tide has found you
Don't let the stormy darkness pull you down
I'll paint a ray of hope around you
Circling in the air
Lighted by a prayer

I'll be your candle on the water
This flame inside of me will grow
Keep holding on you'll make it
Here's my hand so take it
Look for me reaching out to show
As sure as rivers flow
I'll never let you go
I'll never let you go
I'll never let you go...

No matter what they say about you, I'll never let you go. I have to move on and find the happiness that I deserve. Why should I be sad just because you have to let go of me? Why you still reading my blog if I'm not compatible with him? Enough being a psycho in my life. Who are you to control my life? I love him because he is my first love. I chose you because I thought you could be like him but I was wrong. Rebound love? Yes. I still remember my first love even I'm with you. So now, leave me alone. And you, show me the love you have for me. :)

My 23rd Birthday with Lions!

2009-07-14T11:30:00.035+08:00

Alright, let me continue as promised.

Kamal and I were 1 hour late for the SSP gathering last Saturday (working late and it was raining!). Sorry SSPians to keep you guys waiting for my arrival.

What a pleasant surprised that mostly turned up. I would like to thank Haddad and Hyrul for organizing the gathering. So sweet of you guys for still remembering us and had the time for us despite your busy schedule. :D

Another surprise is they celebrated Hadis and my birthday! Ipen, thank you for the Chocolate Banana Cake! Tell your mum, the taste is better compared to SR! Yummy-yummy!

Let us have some photos. Photos credits to Zalinah and Filzah taken with D60.

The ladies preparing the cake.

The final product.

I didn't eat that. But isn't it looks yummy?

With Haddad, Fahmi and Kamal.

With my crazy Kamal. I love you. xoxo

Hadis and I cutting the sinful cake.

Seriously, I have no idea why everyone is so excited. Must be Hadis commenting on his photo. Zalinah giving us our birthday card.

That's the content of my birthday card. I wonder who snapped this photo. hmmmmm Anyway, I was touched reading the birthday wishes especially by Abdillah, Haddad, Huda and Zalinah. :D

The monsters cake! Sampai licin!

The Lion Generations.

I love them so much.

More photos are available in Facebook.

I would like to thank each and every one of SSPians who turned up for the gathering. Thank you for welcoming back into the group after soon long of Missing in Action. However, deep down SSP will always be in my heart and I will do my best to help SSP to go far. Looking back, I never regretted be part of the family. I’m glad I was one of the pioneer batches to build SSP. I believe in SSP it could go far. 6 years old and still counting... :D

After the gathering, Kamal and I headed down to Simpang Bedok to have our supper then went home.

The next day, celebrated my birthday with my nephew, Haziq at Ulu Tiram, Johor.

More on that once Kak Lin uploaded photos. I had the opportunity to play with Canon DSLR! Thank you Kak Lin for lending it to me. Now, I feel like getting it one! And my mum said, “up to you.” Hehehehe

Where is my Vitagen?!

2009-07-14T11:08:00.001+08:00

I need Vitagen to keep me awake!

Let me blogging before I start to doze off in the office which is likely to be happened. Give me a minute, on what to blog. Seriously, my mind is blank. The only thing that I want to do is SLEEP! I thought of continuing my Final Year Report but no inspiration to type. The ideas have been laid down so now is executing it. Dearest MAI, FOUR days to finish it. DO it FAST so that your weekend won’t be burnt!

Speaking of weekend, I enjoyed my last weekend to the brim. I have been celebrating my birthdays with friends and family. Last Friday, I went out with Izah and Huda after work. We headed down to Dhoby Ghaut to dine in at Kampung Pondok Jawa. Sorry no photos were taken because yours truly was hungry! The food was awesome and none left! We ordered Tahu Telur (to me more like gado-gado which wrapped with egg), chicken (still recalling what is the name of it), Kangkong (my favourite! Yummy-yummy!) and lastly Soto soup (liver, beef and what is Babat in English?).

After which, we proceeded to flee market at Singapore Art Museum to meet Siti Hanisah Si hitam manis as she has stall! Hehehehehe….. I bought a bracelet which she made and a wooden crafting jewelry box which I got it for free! I gave that jewelry box to my mum and she loves it. :D

I didn’t have the chance to watch the night movie at SMU as Huda has to leave early (Huda is one of the Guard of Honours for the upcoming NDP!!!) and Izah and I have tutoring the next day.

Let me stop here. I shall continue in my next entry.

On Hiatus...

2009-07-07T15:19:00.004+08:00

20 days to end my internship. Time flies so fast that I hardly catch up my breath. It seems like yesterday my first time working for this company.

Anyway, 11 more days I will be one year ‘younger’! Well, my dad still regards me as a kid! Wahahahaha… Well, that is the advantage of being the youngest child, the only daughter and youngest female in the family. :D

What I want for my birthday? Gathering with my friends! I know that everyone is busy with their errands especially most of my friends are working and I am the only one still studying. I really want to meet them as you will never know what will happen to anyone’s life.

I miss my friends and I don’t want to say goodbye when it’s too late. I love you my friends. Even though, I don’t have close friend but I adore each and every one of you. Take good care of your health what’s more with swine flu cases keep increasing.

Will be on hiatus till...

Fly away H1N1...

2009-07-01T09:38:00.002+08:00

Today, office seems quiet what's more with Jean, who seat besides me is on leave. She is quarantined for 10 days due to her brother got H1N1. Furthermore, tomorrow Jen will be going back to KL visiting his parents and attending a wedding reception. I'm so not looking forward to Friday as I will be working alone. I mean the only intern in the office.Tsk Tsk...

Please pray for Jean that she won't get H1N1 and her brother too for speed recovery. I don't want to be quarantined and extending my internship! tsk tsk... Let's pray the best. Shall we? :D

Oh yes, I have been drinking coffee often. Even in the office,I had coffee for breakfast! Oppss...

Now, I feel sleepy and the weather is best to sleep...

Megan Fox bisexual?

2009-06-29T14:17:00.002+08:00

Megan Fox is/was not a man. Hahaha! I wanna kill the person who spreads the rumor.

However, she…

Megan just told Esquire magazine, "I have no question in my mind about being bisexual ... I mean, I could see myself in a relationship with a girl -- Olivia Wilde is so sexy she makes me want to strangle a mountain ox with my bare hands."

Taken from http://www.tmz.com/2009/05/13/megan-fox-im-bisexual/

2011/2012 Transformers 3 will be in cinema!

Asyik topik lelaki aje...

2009-06-29T00:12:00.002+08:00

“Pilih jangan pasal seseorang kacak. Pilih seseorang itu yang bertanggungjawab. Mana tahu nanti lelaki tu main kayu tiga.”

“Abih, jika pilih seseorang yang bertanggungjawab akan mengecewakan kita juga. Mana tahu dia telah mengandungkan wanita tu. Dia kena bertanggungjawab juga kan diatas perbuatannya.”

“Kau ni, loyar buruk pula eh dengan aku. Tetapikan sekarang memang susah nak dapat seseorang lelaki yang tak kaki perempuan. Aku asyik dengar aje pasangan baru berumahtangga 2 tahun sudah suami buat hal ada wanita lain.”

“Kerana hal macam begitu lah aku tidak mahu memikirkan pasal hal berumahtangga. Setiap kali pergi jemputan aje mesti makcik pakcik aku tanya bila giliran aku. Mentang-mentanglah kedua abang aku sudah berumahtangga. Jadi next target aku lah. Cakap pasal hal ni, bila big day kau. Kau dengan dia sejak menengah 2 dan masing-masing sudah bekerja.”

“Aku tak nak ar cakap pasal hal ni. Kadang-kandang bila kita terlalu lama bercinta macam sudah tak kuasa memikirkannya. Tunggu lama-lama macam sudah tawar hati. Entahlah mai, aku sendiri tak tahu.”

“Kau dengan family dia ok kan? Yang penting kedua-dua belah pihak setuju dan terima korang berdua. Entahlah babe, aku pun tidak mahu fikirkan ni. Dalam otak aku sekarang ni nak keluar dari sini. Nak berlayar dan hidup sendiri. Sejak semenjak aku kena kerja dan sibuk, aku rasa hidup seseorang pun ok juga. Sunyi memang sunyi tetapi bila sudah jadi kebiasaan aku boleh menerimanya. Memang dulu, aku perlukan perhatian, manja, dibelai dan mesti aje perkara nak dibualkan atau kongsi bersama. Tetapi sekarang ia lain. Mungkin kerana masa lalu mengajar aku biar jangan terlalu mengharapkan seseorang itu jadi bila ditinggalkan taklah merana. Opps...”

“Kerana itulah aku takut mai, kerana aku tak boleh berdikari tanpa dia. Tapi sekarang ni entahlah, dia kata belum bersedia abih sampai bila seh. Sampai bila harus aku menunggu?”

“Dalam hal ni babe, kita tidak boleh memaksa. Jodoh ni aku tak berani nak komen. Yang penting, kau tak boleh menduganya bila ia akan datang. Jika kau menyayanginya sudah tentu kau boleh menunggunya tetapi aku mengerti perasaan kau. Aku pun wanita juga tidak suka menunggu dalam hal ni. Takut jika hati ini dipermainkan. Kita tunggu dia tetapi tup tup dia ada hati pada orang lain atau pun mungkin dia ada masalah yang tak boleh dia beritahu kita.”

“Mai, kenapa dengan kau aku boleh luahkan segalanya. Umur kau tak pantas menjadi ukuran untuk kemantangan kau. Walaupun kau tak banyak bebual tetapi bila tanya pendapat kau ia cukup bernas.”

“Pengalaman yang membuat aku begini. Lelaki ni memang susah nak difaham. Seperti kita juga wanita yang banyak berahsia dan sukar memahami gerak geri hati kita. Kau berdoa dan meminta petunjuk dariNya. Kadang-kala hubungan yang lama tidak semestinya kita akan berumahtangga dengan si dia. Kadang-kala dengan seseorang yang baru kita kenal, dialah jodoh kita. Allah, ada caraNya sendiri memberitahu mana baik untuk kita. Sabar dan melihat semua sudut dengan hati dan minda terbuka. Fikir yang baik dan jika yang buruk, fikirlah sebabnya yang munasabah. Satu pengajaran yang aku belajar dari hubungan lama aku, jangan ikutkan perasaan dan memaksa si dia. Mungkin eh kerana sebab itu aku sudah tak kesah kot apa yang dia nak buat, buatlah. Tu sebab aku ok sendirian kot. Eh, jangan bebual pasal hal ni ar, bebual pasal lain ar. Asyik bebual lelaki aje. Kita bebual pasal topik kenapa kau takut dengan kucing?“

Skip dinner equates to nightmare!

2009-06-25T12:25:00.001+08:00

My colleague asked me how to lose weight. Then I answered, “Don’t skip your meals (Breakfast, lunch and dinner. Which somehow I will skip my breakfast and only consume my supplement) and eat moderately for dinner. In between you can have healthy snacks like fruits. Lastly, exercise!”

“Of course I won’t skip my meal especially dinner because I will have nightmare!”

“Aik?! Why will you have nightmare if you don’t take your dinner?”

“Well, you might want to ask other Chinese colleagues about it. Ask them the direct translation of not having dinner.”

As usual, I will always be the blur one in the office when it comes to Mandarin. And yes, I’m fasting people. What a nice topic to discuss when I’m fasting. My colleague continued, “You want to lose more weight is it by fasting? Don’t be. It should be me losing weight.”

I replied, “Then you should also fast with me. At least I have a friend fasting with me.”

“I will definitely faint of hunger!”

Muahahahahaha

Opps, I’m fasting.

Oh my! I totally forgot about this Saturday gathering with Temasekian!!! Lucky, Nadia called me yesterday night. I was paiseh asking, “What’s with this Saturday? I don’t know anything.”

“Babe, it’s the gathering! Which you agreed coming on facebook!”

Muahahahaha

Why there isn’t any reminder in facebook ar for events that we checked coming for it? Oh my oh my…

There goes, I won’t be coming for my cousin’s solemnization. Lucky, my mum doesn’t mind with it and she even let me use her car. Weehoo!

Alright, time check, back to work!

Dearest Zal's Big Day!

2009-06-22T00:58:00.006+08:00

No time to update my blog due to lots of work in the office. No matter what, I had fun last week with lots of impromptu plans. Like slept over at Kak Lin's place, went to search for duck rice stall in Clementi (which is super duper nice and yes, now I'm craving for it.), had ice jelly at Old Airport Road, had dim sum and brownies with ice cream at Simpang. Thanks to my beloved Ayang for tagging along who doesn't complain and always on with impromptu plans. :D But still, I'm losing weigth. 4 kilos in a week. :(

Anyway, last Saturday, Kamal and I went to Zalinah's wedding dinner reception. Thank you Zal for inviting us to your big day. Congrats to you and your husband. May love happiness joy, prosperity, blessings and harmony ever sweetly surround you both and forever. :D

Anyway, I'm proud of SSPians. Great work guys and I enjoyed your performance. :D

Reading wisdom quotes...

2009-06-15T11:48:00.003+08:00

Do you know Albert Camus?

Albert Camus was a French author, philosopher, and journalist who was awarded the Nobel Prize in 1957.

More about him, google on him ok. :D

I love his wisdom quotes.

You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life.

But what is happiness except the simple harmony between a man and the life he leads?

All men have a sweetness in their life. That is what helps them go on. It is towards that they turn when they feel too worn out.

When you have once seen the glow of happiness on the face of a beloved person, you know that a man can have no vocation but to awaken that light on the faces surrounding him; and you are torn by the thought of the unhappiness and night you cast, by the mere fact of living, in the hearts you encounter.

Don't believe your friends when they ask you to be honest with them. All they really want is to be maintained in the good opinion they have of themselves.

Great! Now, I'm wearing my thinking cap after reading too many quotes in the morning. Before that, where shall I have my lunch? Ermmmmmm....

I will always believe in you...

2009-06-14T00:53:00.004+08:00

I Believe in You by II Divo

Lonely, the path you have chosen
A restless road, no turning back
One day you will find your light again
Don't you know? Don't let go, be strong

Follow your heart
Let your love lead through the darkness
Back to a place you one knew
I believe, I believe, I believe in you

Follow your dreams
Be yourself, an angel of kindness
There's nothing that you cannot do
I believe, I believe, I believe in you

Someday I'll find you
Someday you'll find me too
And when I hold you close
I'll know that it's true

You are my first and last for me. I believe in you since the day we first met. You meant a lot to me and I need to be with you forever and ever. I cannot imagine living with someone else. I cried of joy with you beside me. Baby, I believe in you. xox0

My life is happening!

2009-06-12T14:42:00.000+08:00

One of my colleagues said, “You are so happening!” Muahahahaha…

I turned to be a hyper person in the office when I don’t get enough beauty sleep. I tend to disturb my colleagues when I have nothing to do or they will come over to my place to discuss on non work related issues like shopping! Muahahaha

Imagine this, my colleague and I did some online shopping! But heh, we still do our work and submit on time. Sometimes we have our late lunch and overtime too. Like what they usually say, play hard work hard. :D

Wah! Mai so free typing this entry at work eh…ish ish ish… No lah, I’m still waiting for my colleague to finish her part then I can proceed with my work. Oh yes, last Tuesday Kak Lin kidnapped me again and overnight at her place. We watched State of Play. If you don’t like politic issues and mind movies then I suggest you not to watch this movie. You really have to concentrate the game being played. To me it is a twist and turn movie.

Last Wednesday went down to SP after work to check on SSP camp. It was great to catch up with them even for short while (That time I have yet to finish my progress report. I’m relieved when it is over. Now, I’m preparing for my final report.). To Arif, thanks for sharing the stories with me and I’m fine. We have moved on.

Thanks Wak Mal for having dinner with me after so long of not meeting up. I appreciate it lots. XOXO

It is hard to let the feelings go if you still care for the person. No matter how much I hate that person, I still do concern for the person.

Dear God, please guide me to the lighted path.

Ok, back to work…

Full of Surprises!

2009-06-09T13:59:00.001+08:00

I shall make this a quick one.

Friday gathering was awesome with 4e2ence and Mdm Rao who is our ex form teacher. We had dinner at Parkway Parade while catching up on each others’ life. Oh yes, Mdm Rao is VP of Bedok View Sec! So proud of her! :D There are many more to type but heh time is not on my side.

Saturday was the most packed day for me. Morning till afternoon I had tutoring then reached home to get the car key and proceed to Abg Adi’s place to get Emak’s car. It’s a long story why Emak’s car at his place. And so after that, I’m supposed to go for night training but it was cancelled then I made my way to Kamal’s place. Why? Fishing with his family!!! :D I enjoyed my night spending time with them. Emak was right to say, “Just be yourself and I’m sure his family is better than you know who. Don’t let the past still be in you. Embrace this moment and always be thankful to Him.”

Sunday, reached home at 6am and stay awake till 9pm. I spent my time with my family. Sent my raya clothes with Emak then cook lunch for Abah. After which we went to Abg Adi’s place to see Mirza! Circumcision! Muahahaha! Last two weeks was Haziq! Sudah besar anak-anak saudara aku…

Monday, is another dramatic day. Sleepy at work and all of sudden head departments looked for me to do various tasks. I’m honored to receive as they believe in me but not when I’m half shut! Muahaha… Just imagine I can sleep while coding! After work, last minute dinner with Kak Lin and I got my birthday gift!!! One month early. Hehehehe :D Kak Lin gave a bag (I’m so in need of new bag to work as my current bag will be dead anytime), a wallet (Kak Lin couldn’t stand with my so called orange wallet which cost $5.90. She said the wallet is suitable to go market. Muahaha) and a purple shirt! Thank you so much Kak Lin! Love you loads lah! Hehehe… Ni part baru sayang eh…hehehe gurau aje lah…

Alright that’s all. Back to work!

Next Semester...

2009-06-05T09:46:00.002+08:00

GOSH!!! I planned my next semester time-table and turned out my lessons will be in the morning and end before 12.30pm!!! Isn't that good since the fasting month is around the corner. :)

No more break my fast alone in school. My mum will surely smiling widely when hear the news. :D

Oh yes, I'm taking 3 modules for this semester but 12 AUs. (Academic Units = Number of hours spend in school). Then the part which I'm not looking forward is Exam!!! All in the same week and back to back. :(

You cannot always have the good things everytime right? It's okay. No matter what, I'm thankful to Allah for the blessings and happiness. :D

6 Weeks to go!!!! :D

2009-06-04T23:14:00.004+08:00

Only 6 weeks worked for this company, their true colours have revealed. Muahahaha!

PTBB = Pretending To Be Busy

AIDS = As If Doing Something

Now, I'm wondering should I or not continuing my service with this company. I can handle the work load but colleagues?

Maybe I will just MYOB = Mind Your Own Business. And of course, programming is all about working alone. hmmmmmm

On the bright side, 6 weeks to go! :D

Failure?

2009-06-03T08:52:00.003+08:00

"You have to know what you are capable of and go for it. Sometimes I think Singaporeans are afraid of failure, which is a pity (as it stops them from moving forward)," she added.

~ Stefanie Sun

Tell me, who isn't afraid of failure?

Everyone is afraid but if you know how to fight it, I'm sure it won't stop you from moving forward.

Choose your friends wisely and stay positive! :D

Alright, back to work.

Happy Birthday Abg Mamat! :)

2009-05-31T21:41:00.002+08:00

To my elder brother, Abg Mamat

You're so patient
And understanding
You don't ask for anything
You're never demanding

You're so quick to give
And such a joy to be around
You're such a good person
You deserve a special crown

You have a good heart
And you're honest and true
You're the best brother
Happy Birthday to you

From your only sister
Missy Mai
<3

Where have you been my energy?

2009-05-27T21:05:00.003+08:00

How can I say NO to tutor? Do you know how tired I am after work having to tutor? Not many people want to tutor upper level Maths. Now, how can I find replacement?

Nowadays, my supervisor is always in the office. This is not good because she will be seating besides me!!! Sorry to those who SMS or call me that I could not answer or reply your SMS. :(

I wanted to type a lot but I have no energy. Until, next time my dear readers. Do take good care of your health. What’s more, with first swine case in Singapore.

Missing my friends...

2009-05-27T00:31:00.000+08:00

The truth I have been waiting for. You have given me all your trust to me. Now, you have made me special and no one else. Thank you for believing in me. Yes, they are jealous of me. Nevertheless, who cares, it is my life and I love it.

Praise to Allah who shows me the lighted path. Lastly you, yes you, I love you and miss you loads.

Nurulhuda, where have you been? :(

Zafirah, busy finding jobs or ... ? :P

Hajjar, Idza is coming back. As much as I want Idza to come back, I know deep down Idza loves her stays in Europe. I am happy for her, as she deserved the happiness after what happened to her all these years. :)

BV women, it is time for a gathering. When shall we have it?

Nad!!! Quick, tell me your schedule?!

Siti Sa’aidah, thank you for last Saturday. Once a year eh, we go out together. :P

I just realised that I do not have many girl friends. Am I too choosy or I being an introvert? hmmmmm

Pakej ke Kuala Lumpur - Colmar Bukit Tinggi

2009-05-26T09:21:00.003+08:00

4 Hari Kuala Lumpur - Colmar Bukit Tinggi
Berangkat: Ogos 07 - 10 2009

Hari 1 (9.30 malam) : Singapura - Kuala Lumpur

Bertolak ke Kuala Lumpur melalui laluan kedua Tuas. Selepas pemeriksaan Imigrasi dan Kastam meneruskan perjalanan ke Kuala Lumpur.

Hari 2: Kuala Lumpur - Masjid India - Petaling Street

Pagi hari tiba di Kuala Lumpur, solat subuh di Masjid Putrajaya. Kemudian anda di bawa sarapan (biaya sendiri). Meneruskan perjalanan ke Jalan Masjid India untuk membeli belah.

2.30ptg: Check in hotel - Acara bebas.

7.30mlm: Membeli belah di Petaling Street.

10mlm: Kembali ke hotel - Bermalam di Kuala Lumput

Hari 3: Kuala Lumpur - Bukit Tinggi Colmar Tropicale

7pagi: Sarapan di hotel
10pagi: Bertolak ke Bukit Tinggi. Tiba di Bukit Tinggi anda di bawa melawat taman arnab, taman bunga, Japanese tea house dan lain-lain lagi(tiket tram sudah termasuk)

3ptg: Check in hotel. Acara bebas.

7.30mlm: Makan malam di sediakan di hotel coffee house.

Hari 4: Bukit Tinggi - Melaka - Singapura

7pagi: Sarapan di hotel.

9.30pagi: Bertolak ke Melaka - tiba Melaka anda di bawa ke Melaka Sentral dan Medan Samudera.

3ptg: Bertolak ke Singapura

8mlm: Tiba di Singapura

*aturcara dan waktu tertakluk kepada perubahan.*

Harga Pakej:
$245.00 seorang di dalam 1 bilik berdua
$235.00 seorang di dalam 1 bilik bertiga
$200.00 kanak2 di bawah usia 12 tahun termasuk katil(extra bed)
$160.00 kanak2 di bawah usia 12 tahun tanpa katil (without extra bed)

Harga Pakej Termasuk:
Bas pesiaran berhawa dingin, pemandu pelancong, group insurance, 1 malam di Quality atau Grand Seasons Hotel (4*) - Kuala Lumpur + sarapan, 1 malam di Colmar Tropicale Resort (4*) - Bukit Tinggi + sarapan + malam malam. Tiket lawatan di Colmar - Bukit Tinggi.

Untuk keterangan lebih lanjut, anda boleh menghubungi saya di irahmiti@gmail.com atau tinggalkan pesanan anda di ruang komen yang disediakan.

History

2009-05-24T22:12:00.002+08:00

says (10:39 PM):
amcm kau dgn ...?
Missy Mai says (10:39 PM):
aku dengan ... sudah tidak ada apa-apa lagi
Missy Mai says (10:40 PM):
since last year ar
says (10:40 PM):
huh?
Missy Mai says (10:40 PM):
we have decided to go separate ways
long story
says (10:40 PM):
asl seh?
padahal korg dua dah lama

The rest is history and please do not be an informer telling me who is he being with right now or asking me rumors. Thank you. :)

“Mai, looks like you have moved on and I am happy for you.”

Thank you but deep down only God knows how I feel right now. With his ex’s feelings, my feelings, I wanted everything to end.

Sadly, I could not do it. I have to accept the past and learn from the mistakes.

Crocs Expo Sale May 09!

2009-05-22T00:22:00.002+08:00

So much of work in the office until I don't have the time to update on Warehouse Sales. Anyway, to all Crocs Shoe Lovers, here is a good news for you. :)

Crocs Expo Sale May 09 is here!

Minah is Speaking....

2009-05-21T22:35:00.003+08:00

I discovered an interesting blog and decided to share with you. Before that, let me share a bit about the author. She is a Minah like most of Malay girls and that include me. I respect her for creating this blog to make non-Minahs understand Minah’s language.

It is not an easy job my readers as I myself have the difficulty of understanding their language. Most people will criticize the way they dress up, they speak and of course their education status. However, criticize alone will not give any benefit to anyone. Knowing them better is the best way to filter the disagreements and easier to advice them.

My brain is tired and seems could not uudecode what I wanted to say. Oh my gosh! Jason Mraz on television! Yes, I’m watching American Idol and Kris Allen won!!! I won the bet! :D

That’s aside. Anyway, here is the link to minahspeak’s blog. I love you girl!

Happy Birthday to....

2009-05-18T20:22:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday to....

Emak!

You were the doctor when we were ill,
Giving us a bandage, a hug or a pill?
(Mostly the pill, like now, she wants me to take paracetamol. Thanks to migraine.)
You were the teacher when we had schoolwork to do
(I remember those days when I have art homework, she will always helped me do it cause of my last minute work!)
You gave us love and patience, too.
(From her, I learned the art of patience and forgiveness.)

How much I wish I could tell you, Emak,
How much you mean to me.
But there are no words to say.

How much I admire you and appreciate you.
Thank you for everything you have done thus far.

I wish you a happy, happy birthday Emak!
I love you loads.

Your only daughter,
Missy Mai
XOXO

His love....

2009-05-17T21:35:00.005+08:00

From him to someone special...

He made this on the bus on the way home from KL. :)

Being Nice...

2009-05-17T19:50:00.004+08:00

Something to share...

it's been a really challenging week. emotional stress can sometimes be too much to handle, despite the constant effort to stay afloat and be positive. a rubber band can only stretch so far before it snaps.

when you're surrounded with negative energy, the only natural flow is to be sucked in and wander in negativity. it takes a strong mind to push all the bad energy aside and focus on clean air.

what i've learnt is to BLOCK OUT NEGATIVITY. block out negative thoughts. block out negative people. just shove it aside as if they don't matter. because seriously, we CANNOT make EVERYONE happy and pleased with us. trust yourself and in the actions that you take.

some of this negativity will come from loved ones and those who matter to you. it is human nature for people to think negatively of things and events they do not understand or have no personal experience with. one of the most important steps you will have to take to reach any goal is to be able to block out and/or redirect negativity.

you have to trust yourself to be able to do this. spend some alone time so that you can purge the toxic feedback from others out of your mind and out of your life. everyone that was close to me did not understand nor share in my dream in the beginning. only after they started to see my dream materialize did they begin to support it.

that is why it is essential to block out or at least filter the negativity. understanding the cause of these behaviors and reactions makes it easier to dismiss them and to follow your own thoughts instead.

personally for me, it's been a constant battle to manage stress and negativity. you don't deserve people calling you ungrateful, useless, hopeless, a monster, a nuisance or whatever it is that is detrimental to yourself as a person. if you know that you have always done your best at everything that you do, then everything else that people say, don't matter.

ALWAYS BE NICE TO OTHERS NO MATTER HOW TERRIBLE THEY TREAT YOU.

i practice that till now. you are in charge of how you react to the people and events in your life. you can either give negativity power over your life or you can choose happiness instead. take control and choose to focus on what is important in your life. those who cannot live fully often become destroyers of life. and those who choose to bring you down, don't deserve you. block out and move on.

Taken from Nona Kirana's Blog.

Agree no more no less. Alright, I'm kind of tired as I reached home at 6am. Went to Az's bbq and had crash course with Munir's Gang. Why? Because for 3 years I have been MIA from the gang. Thanks guys for always be there for me.

Anyway, thanks Abg Adi and Kak Lin for the lunch. The duck rice is delicious and love it. :)

To my beloved Mal, thanks a lot for yesterday. You know how much I love you and need you as much as you need me. XOXO. *MMMuuuaahh* :D

Three words...

2009-05-14T22:24:00.003+08:00

Three words: I love you.
The year has been set and my sisters-in-law are the happiest people.
:)

Unsolved Dilemma

2009-05-12T22:55:00.003+08:00

Should I let go the love I have been waiting for? Should I let go the happiness that I have been searching for?

My heart says NO but my mind says YES.

Letting it go for someone's happiness and hurting my heart again.

Yes, I'm having PMS and hate it. It is like I'm experiencing it repeatedly. I hate to take someone's ex even though I didn't snatch from them. Then the girl (ex bf) will feel bad for what she had done with her ex and didn't give her best to improve their relationship.

After which, the girl will act like a clone of her ex so as to make her ex feel regretted of losing her. Then his gf will feel bad indirectly and under dilemma.

That is why if anyone wants/likes/loves/seeing/dating my ex I will delete and block the person on MSN so that she won't feel guilty or anything that she doesn't want to know. Same goes to the contents of my blog. I will do my best not to talk about my ex. I want the lady to be happy with my ex and not to think about me.

Bad sadly, some girls don't get the idea of break up.

No one understands it...No one to talk to... :(

Sometimes, I hate I born nice. Why I always put others first instead of me? But still, people think bad of me. I'm clueless and unsolved dilemma will always hunt me. Did you curse me? :(

My random life...

2009-05-11T00:17:00.014+08:00

Seriously, I want to type a lot but I just don't have the energy. What have I been up to lately?

Back from KL trip. Enjoyed walking around KL.
Work has been challenging. Colleagues are friendly and helpful.
Went bowling with Munir's gang and had supper. Reached home at 4am.
Celebrated Mother's Day celebration twice.
Miss him and love him loads.
Attended Kasma and Ali's solemnization and wedding reception.
Met loads of SPMLS friends but I felt different due to my lost memories. Suddenly I became more reserved.
Chatted with someone who I love having conversation back then but life has to move on.
Lastly, I have to work today which most people are enjoying the long week end.

Alright, let's have some random photos.

We might saying Goodbye to Allison

2009-05-07T15:09:00.002+08:00

Looks like Allison will be going home tonight. Don't believe me, here are the voting results so far.

Check this out >> http://www.zabasearch.com/ai_stats.php

I am always cute!

2009-05-05T20:53:00.002+08:00

I took the quiz “What kind of good-looking are you? (For Girls)” from Facebook. So what do you think is the result?

Missy Mai completed the quiz "What kind of good-looking are you? (For Girls)" with the result Cute.

People generally like you. You are funny, nice, and outgoing, and you always have a smile on your face. People often say you are beautiful on the inside and out, and you have no problems making friends with anyone. You take the time to enjoy life's moments, and you always look on the bright side. Everything comes easily to you, in every aspect. But, because everything comes so easily, when catastrophe hits, you completely fall apart because you never learned how to deal. Also, a lot of people don't like you simply because they're jealous of you, or because they find your sensitivity and bubbliest annoying rather than endearing. That is okay though, because you do not need those people. Just keep being yourself and everything will be smooth sailing from here.

I agree with the one I highlighted in red. They are simply jealous of me and I shall not care too much on it. I will just be myself and love what I am doing. :D

Happy Anniversary to my brothers and sisters in law!

2009-05-05T15:18:00.001+08:00

Yesterday, it was my first day at work. One word: Miracle.

Working place is at Hotpark instead of Tanjong Pagar. I cannot believe I’m working for a bank (my client) which I ‘love’ so much.

Colleagues are friendly, free flow of snacks and drinks, I have my own laptop and desktop and internet access!

Hehehehehe…

Alright, I shall get back to work and master in Excel.

Anyway, I would like to wish Happy Anniversary to my both brothers and sisters in law.

Remember?

Remember the first flush of love
that drew you powerfully together?
It still feeds the unassailable bond
that makes your marriage so secure.
Remember all the qualities about each other
you found so endearing?
They are still there,
and new ones create sweet surprises.
Remember thinking that this love
would last forever?
Your love has strengthened and grown
into eternal affection and admiration.
Years from now, you'll look back
at this anniversary
and realize you love each other
more than ever.

Happy Anniversary!

By Joanna Fuchs

Another Year

Another year to create
precious memories together.
Another year to discover
new things to enjoy about each other.
Another year to build
a life rich in love and laughter.
Another year to strengthen
a marriage that defines "forever."

Happy Anniversary!

By Joanna Fuchs

Selamat Hari Jadi Abah

2009-05-04T21:59:00.005+08:00

Perbualan antara Emak dan aku selepas penat pulang dari kerja.

Aku: Emak hari ni hari lahir Abah. Abah tak membebel di tempat kerja?

Emak: Nak dengar cerita lucuh?

Aku: Apa ia Emak?

Emak: Tadi Emak dan Abah pergi makan di Al-Fiah. Jadi Abah kan selalu koyak kopun kereta lalu Abah berkata, "Hari ni empat hari bulan lima. eh! Hari jadi aku! Takde orang pun nak belanja aku makan. Takde orang pun nak ucapkan selamat hari jadi aku. Sedih aku."

Emak jawablah,"tulah siapa suruh awak lokek dengan anak-anak. Kan mereka sudah merajuk.Lagipun sejak bila pula awak menyambut hari jadi ni?"

Aku: Hehehehehe. Abih nak buat macam mana Emak. Sudah semua anak-anak Emak bertugas. OKlah, nanti hujung minggu kita belanja Abah makan.

Nilah Abah aku yang aku sangat sayang. Selamat hari jadi Abah! Semoga tahun akan datang bertambah rezeki Halal untuk Abah dan gembira disisi orang yang tersayang. Semoga Abah diberikan kekuatan dan tenaga untuk teruskan kehidupan seharian dan melakukan ibadah soleh. Amin. :)

Semoga kurang becok Abah juga! hehehehehe.

Selamat Ulangtahun Perkahwinan juga pada Emak dan Abah yang ke 34 tahun. :D

Swine Flu another War...

2009-04-30T13:50:00.003+08:00

As expected, I did not watch the movie ‘Jangan Tegur’ and awake since yesterday. I am exhausted and still have not packed my bag for tomorrow. Hence, I have decided to give it a pass and stay at home.

Have you read the news on ‘Swine Flu’? It is different compared to SARS virus. I heard a child dies in US from it. Now it is scary and serious.

Pigs can harbor influenza viruses adapted to humans and others that are adapted to birds, allowing the viruses to exchange genes and create a pandemic strain.

Mr Khaw said that although Singapore is more prepared than six years ago, the Mexican swine flu is not the same as the SARS virus. Describing it as a new war, he cautioned that the swine flu is more challenging, giving three reasons.

Firstly, the swine flu is more contagious. Secondly, patients can be infectious before symptoms appear. Hence, border controls may not be fool-proof and there may be leakages.

Lastly, Mr Khaw said that historically, flu pandemic tends to come in waves. While the initial wave may look mild, the second one can be quite lethal.

Visit Swine Flu Outbreak or 2009 Swine Flu Outbreak for more information on it.

Red is Love Red is Danger!

2009-04-30T03:37:00.004+08:00

I should be sleeping instead of typing this entry! Gosh! I hope I manage to stay awake for the movie later in the morning. What movie am I watching? "Jangan Tegur"! That explains why I'm watching it in the morning. Muahahaha.

Oh yes, exam is over and tomorrow I will be heading to KL. Another short getaway to look forward before the start of internship. Speaking of internship, I need to brush up on my programming!!! Anyone who is good in it please raise up your hands! I need your help... Pretty please... For sure you will be rewarded. :)

That's aside. Do you like my new layout? Suddenly I feel like changing my blog skin red. Red is love. Red is danger. If you are in love you are in danger! Why? Because you don't know what you got yourself into. Ermmmm... Anyway, I also added the links to online shopping. As you know me, I don't like shopping at the mall as I hate crowds! Hence, online shopping websites work best for me. :)

Alright, I shall head the bed. Eh wait, I'm already on the bed. Muahahaha. Oh no! My dad's alarm clock is ringing! Time check: 4AM!!!

Night baybeh!

Riding license?

2009-04-30T00:33:00.000+08:00

Should I or should not take riding license?
My parents gave the green light.
What say you?

Separation? Relationship?

2009-04-26T07:23:00.006+08:00

A true friend is one with whom you can discuss anything, with complete trust and ease. Without fear that you will be misinterpreted. One with whom you can be your true self, without wearing a mask. And yet be sure that you are loved. ~ Anonymous

Living with integrity means:

Not settling for less than what you know you deserve in your relationships.
Asking for what you want and need from others.
Speaking your truth, even though it might create conflict or tension.
Behaving in ways that are in harmony with your personal values.
Making choices based on what you believe, and not what others believe. ~ Barbara De Angelis

As time goes by, I learned the meaning of separation. I believe this is not the ending but the beginning.

I have to live with my pasts, as there is no way I can undo it. Now, it is up to me how I want to deal with it. Lock it with a padlock and throw away the key? On the other hand, I could let it linger in my mind.

Let us see whether it will be a smooth or rocky ride. No matter what it takes, family comes first and standing up for my rights.

Kelly Clarkson - My Life Would Suck Without You

2009-04-25T17:55:00.003+08:00

Kelly Clarkson - My Life Would Suck Without You

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out I'm nothing without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Being with you
Is so disfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you
But I can’t let you go
Oh yeah

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

I hope I answered your questions. Love instead of time will heal my heart. I thank you for still loving me and please do not give up hope on me. XOXO.

Moving Out Sale of Versace!

2009-04-21T13:56:00.004+08:00

Halo everyone!

The Moving Out Sale of Versace is here!

Up to 80% and it is until 12th May!

Where?! Paragon, behind information counter, #01-04/05.

SO HURRY UP BRING ALONG YOUR FAMILY MEMBERS AND FRIENDS!

:D